If your lovers goal and main objective is to turn off your passion, suppress your sex, and make you passion-less and not filled with passion, he has a main objective; to displeasure you, and turn you off; not on!
The definition of to dis-please is: to incur the dissatisfaction, dislike, or disapproval of, offend, annoy, and also to be unpleasant.
The definition of displeasure is: dissatisfaction, disapproval, or annoyance, discomfort, uneasiness or pain, and an act of offense, annoyance or injury.
If your lover shuts you down, rejects you, rejects your requests of connection and intimacy, gets mad when you want him, gets mad when you are horny, ignores you when you are horny, and even does energy magic manipulation tactics to turn your high sexual energy down to feel nothing, like he was trying to turn it off and calm you down, he is an energy vampyre, AND maybe a psychopath himself, or some strange sex avoider.
Most of the time, psychopaths are sexual predators, and attempt to be very sexually active, almost aggressive and hurtful, and if they aren’t in one moment, it will come out later. My experience with my psychopathic lover was, that because my love making style was SOOO gentle, sensual, and tantric (where I wanted to look into each others eyes, move VERY slowly to have multiple orgasms, and wanted to be asked permission before he touched my breasts, and for them to be touched gently and with love) and he knew I refused to connect with him if it wasn’t that way, and had the ability to control his high energy and slow him down, even with all his will power, he got to the point where he wasn’t interested in sex at all. And, the only time he was ever really open to doing it is when I convinced him with my seduction. But most of the time, that didn’t work. He complained that he used to be able to move fast with Suzy ex, or squeeze Linda whoever’s nipples aggressively, and she didn’t mind the pain. But I did, so instead of being loving and supportive of my gentle needs, he just rejected me al-together. Talk about a passion killer!
And, I had SOOO much passion! I was horny all the time. I wanted him ALL the time, every time we saw each other, every time we talked, and almost any time we made connection. And most of the time I initiated all of those connections too. My other lovers and even other connections were so jealous of the desire I had for him, but I never got my fill or return of the passion I put out. I ended up waiting, in limbo, like I mentioned before. I was like the sexually frustrated guy who was always horny and with a very passive girlfriend. I always felt like we reversed roles, but really, I was a tantrica. I had blasted open my sexual energy, was willing to have sex and be connected intimately all the time, but then somehow got knocked up with some repressed angry psycho who didn’t even speak my tantric language. He didn’t even understand what I was talking about, and would get mad when I spoke in terms of all things beautiful from my trainings. He talked the talk, but didn’t walk the talk, claiming he was so tantric, and many many times it seemed that way, but the true colors always came out later, in my own sexual frustration and his rejection of me.
I remember one time I came home from a Daka /Dakini Conference in Sedona, Arizona. This was a Sexual Healers Conference, and I had enjoyed myself so much, experienced pleasure, love, intimacy and healing and raised my sexual vibration and my kundalini was flowing so beautifully. I came home happy, excited, and filled with vibrant energy that I wanted to share. And, immediately when I got home, he came over. The intention was to connect, and I was hoping to share my beautiful love energy with him. And, as soon as he saw me, and felt my energy, he literally placed his hands on my back, did this strange breathing technique, and made ALL my tantric and beautiful passion energy DIS-APPEAR! It was like magick! I didn’t know what happened, or how it happened, but I knew I was pissed, and I wanted my energy back. I flew that far away, spent the money to travel, get healing experience connection, and then as soon as I arrived home, he did his vampiric energy sucking technique thing and made it ALL go away! I couldn’t believe it! He didn’t have permission to do that! And, I then started studying vampirism, vampire magick and the true meaning of energy vampires for years after, but it was only until this past year, that I learned that true evil vampires are actually the spiritual name for Psychopaths! So, all that talk about vampires was being nice! Because some spiritual energy vampire’s are actually awesome good people, and there is amazing gifts they give to people, with permission. I’ve joined communities and found out about them. (granted some of them are very sick, but many have advanced healing abilities and offer them with permission and love; nothing like what’s in the movies). The movies give them a bad name (and teach mentally sick people to be even sicker). However, after leaving someone, and truly separating my consciousness and energy from him, I discovered that Psychopaths are actually the true vampires! Go figure! And, they don’t even know they are doing it, nor is there really any cure! (Unless they had a head trauma and get brain surgery, or treatment from some brain balancing devices that can help, but they have to want it).
Boundaries, agreement and permission is the missing link. Its the permission piece that is missing with those who are mentally not healthy. If sex is not exciting, thrilling and perhaps violent enough, psychopathic men get bored. They want to dominate, control and possess every single part of you. If they know they can’t do it, the next solution for them, is to shut you down. (His offense is your defense, and he tried to tear me down, but I was a match in standing power. Perhaps that alone is what drew us apart. I stopped letting him overpower me, in one situation at least).
They try to make you feel like you’re undesirable. But I knew I wasn’t un-desirable. I just knew there was something wrong with his thinking. And for many many years, I tried to help him, hoping and thinking that eventually he would come around, because he did make efforts, promises, join me in spiritual retreats and events, even go to some awesome therapy sessions, but it wasn’t enough. He didn’t try enough, or want it enough to truly make a difference. All that forgiveness I did, and love I shared, eventually had to be put away, on a shelf perhaps for another time. And, like in the movie Vanilla Sky, as the beautiful actress says, “maybe in our next lifetime when we are both cats!”
Who knows! Maybe he will heal, but most likely, he won’t try!