Couples Marriage Coaching

Couples Marriage CoachingCouples Marriage Coaching

I’m thrilled to announce I’ve been doing more Couples and Marriage Coaching Sessions! Some couples choose to come see me separately and one on one, and some choose to see me together. While, I am great at one on one coaching, I am even better with couples! When someone comes to me privately, my focus is on helping the individual, and all the issues they are dealing with. However, not all the issues may be obvious when they come alone. I only see one persons perspective this way, and will always take to their side. When they come together, my goal is to support both individuals, and I have a bigger picture to work with, and an awareness of whats going on from both perspectives, and hence, a much bigger understanding of the healing that is needed.

I then pick up on the joint energy between the couple, the joint patterns, the joint triggers, and all the work that is needed to heal a relationship can be done right there on the spot. I still start with a gentle breathing or meditation practice, then move into coaching for each individual, and conversation of course will happen for both sides; taking turns.  We may move into forgiveness practices, acknowledging the other partner, eye gazing, breathing together, and emotional processing that is needed for each person that is at the core of the feelings inside of each of them. If we can move beyond all of these practices and the issues have been resolved, then we can move to the next stage of healing for your beloved and your relationship.

I still teach Tantra and Spiritual practices, however, they come after we have sorted out the major obstacles that are keeping your relationship separate or distant. Just like private sessions, working with the couple, both parties need to feel like they have gotten the support they needed, and each persons feelings are taken into account, as well as each persons individual issues and triggers. If the issues go beyond my abilities as a Coach, and the person needs more clinical help, we will discuss how I can be helpful alongside this, to continue the growth and healing of the relationship.

Both people in the couple must want to heal their relationship in order for the relationship to improve. If only one person wants to heal, and the other does not, we will address that in session. Or, if only one person thinks the other needs to work on them-self, and the other does not, we will find out if this is true, and how one in the couple can help the other to heal or grow. Sometimes, the support of just knowing your Beloved cares about you and wants you to be happier and feel better, and being a witness to your growth is all it takes. And sometimes, this inspires the other person in the relationship to realize they need to look at them-self too!

The cycle of making the other partner wrong is at the core of all relationships! When you can take personal responsibility for your half and how you are being with your partner, most obstacles melt away!

Love, Asttarte

Sex and Dating

Sex and Dating

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I’ve mentioned in past posts how sex can bring up deeper issues hidden in the core of someone’s being. If the issues that are brought up were not dealt with before, or are triggered by the new lover and come to the surface, the best thing to do is face them head on. Sometimes the feelings that come up from the past is something you would rather stuff to the ground, repress it, keep it hidden, not confront it at all. But how do you move past a superficial connection to something magical, powerful, harmonious and beautiful if you ignore what is showing up for you? A relationship is a powerful tool for healing and can be a miraculous journey of growth, if you let it.

The best thing to do, is get clarity on where you are at, and sit with it, breathe with it, and feel into it. Communicate with your lover/partner/girlfriend that you are working through something. Don’t leave them in the dust to try to figure it out, guess and wonder what’s going on. Communicate at least to let them know you are ok, you’re processing something, and will return once you feel more complete on what has been brought up for you. If you like the person, and there’s potential of a great relationship, do your potential partner the courtesy of communicating with them; even if its minimal communication. Let them know what’s going on, you’re still around, and will return. This acknowledges the new potential relationship that there is a connection and hope of a relationship still exists.

Its totally ok if you have been triggered into your deeper issues, wounds, feelings. This the woman would see as a strength, and she would respect you for it. If you neglect her existence, she might not think you care, and may very well move on to someone new! So speak up, say something. Show you care, and don’t be silent! Your voice, your feelings and your relationship matters! It’s the stepping stone to something wonderful!

This is often a huge reason why I suggest becoming friends with your potential lover or partner before engaging in deeper intimacy with them. So, there is trust, safety and love, and you know they aren’t going anywhere just because a trigger came up. Its something that can be worked through, and the foundation of the relationship has already been built. Relationships always bring up things for people. If someone runs at the first trigger in the relationship, the possibility for a relationship with that person is impossible!  There’s many more things to work through, and if you run at the first chance of a trigger, no relationship with ever grow!

Let’s hope for foundation to be built in new relationships, safety, trust, love and breakthroughs to happen again and again!

Much love,

Asttarte

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When He Keeps Rejecting You

When He Keeps Rejecting You

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When your husband, significant lover, or boyfriend keeps rejecting you, after countless years and months of being together it is heart-breaking. I mentioned a while back this topic in an article called, “When You Want Your Husband and Someone else Shows Up“, this was relating to the same situation. The main man in your heart, the one your heart is deepest connected to over and above anyone else, is rejecting you, and there is nothing you can do! (This article also has relevance: When Your Hunny Just Doesn’t Want to Have Sex)

You gently say, it’s okay in one moment, and can be patient and wait for him when he is ready, but when he says the same thing over and over again, “not now hun”, “I’m tired,” or “we can connect later. Time and space won’t make a difference for how we feel, and if it does, we didn’t love each other anyway.” You think he makes some rational sense, but perhaps its his way of brain washing you to accept it, his reverse psychology of manipulation, because he probably really knows how to trick you, and cuts into your empathy personality of kindness, compassion and love. He knows they are your core values; to be kind, patient and accepting of others.

You see he’s dealing with something. You don’t know what it is. You’re annoyed, but your heart is open, and you love him, so you accept his needs, and request to connect later. But later never comes!

In the book, Men Who Can’t Love, it says under The Commitmentphobic Husband:

“Perhaps the most amazing thing about the committmentphobic husband is to the extremes to which he goes in order to not feel trapped. His discomfort is so great that he loses sight of the fact that his wife is a human being. Yet, after marriage, he is often so intensely uncomfortable, so anxious and so out of control that he can no longer see her clearly. He is often a man without mercy. His anxiety to find space and freedom within a relationship in which he feels trapped is no less terrifying to watch than the recently captured animal. He is flailing and it will do no good to point to him that his wife is just a woman and that she probably loves him. He can no longer see the reality of the situation. In his head she is captor.”

It’s amazing how many times you hear your man who is terrified of intimacy blame you for scaring him, or giving him anxiety, or putting pressure on him, or yelling that you ask too much of him, when all you want is intimacy, and he gives you nothing; or very little so much as a hug or sitting next to you for a short period on the couch. That is not deep intimacy, but to him, its all he can handle.

You think you yourself can handle this behavior. You allow it to continue and adjust your body’s arousal, and energy to handle his rejection. You even maintain intimacy with others to continue to accept it, but its never enough. You wanted him, most of all. Sometimes having affairs or an open marriage, doesn’t resolve the issues within the relationship, especially when they are deep rooted. If they have a fear of intimacy, and an issue with attachment, them telling you to go be with others and connect with them won’t resolve your hurt, frustration or pain with him. The issues with him must be resolved with him, not someone else. After all, it’s his fear of intimacy that is causing you to need to be with others anyway, isn’t it. So, its fear of intimacy that needs to be healed, not your sexual frustration. Being with others is wonderful, but in the end, its only a temporary solution, to a much bigger problem.

In the book, Recovery Workbook, For Love Addicts and Love Avoidants, it says: “Love Avoidants suffer from some form of childhood incest, and they fall in love but abort the relationship when it gets serious. Incest can mean overt (sexual molestation and rape), covert (sexual energy without touching) and emotional (being forced to be a surrogate partner).”

Saboteurs are Avoidants who destroy relationships when they start to get serious or at whatever point their fear of intimacy comes up.

Seductive Withholders run hot and cold. They always come on to you when they want sex or companionship. When they become bored or frightened, they begin withholding companionship, sex, affection, anything that makes them feel anxious. (If they leave the relationship just once, they’re Saboteurs. If they keep repeating the pattern of being available/unavailable in the same relationship, they are Seductive Withholders.

My guy was definitely a Committmentphobic and Seductive Withholder, and definitely a multitude of personality disorders. It’s hard to pinpoint without an actual diagnosis, however, being a practitioner for a very long time, and studying psychology and healing myself for 2 decades, I can pretty much estimate what is correct.

The most difficult thing is this person is your best friend, and was your lover, who connected with you so profoundly deeply and got into your heart before anyone else did. He’s stuck in there, like a leech, and you can’t get him out. So, those who deal with this, often want to try to help, support, heal, and struggle with being kind and offering compassion. However, in the end, this type of person must choose on his or her own, to get their own help, and truly get through their own battles, lest they stop giving them to you. You have enough battles to conquer on your own! I sure did.

In the book, The Sociopath at the Breakfast Table; Recognizing and Dealing with AntiSocial and Manipulative People, its says:

“When you first meet a sociopath (very similar to psychopath by the way), you may be impressed by her good manners. She tends to be charming at first, may go out of her way to please you, and often falls back on flattery. These tactics are designed to draw you in, but beware, for she is not what she appears, which is why sociopaths are often called “social chameleons.” It seems counterintuitive that someone so charming can be so dangerous.”

They have no trouble convincing the whole neighborhood and local community that they are perfectly normal, and most likely it is you that his community thinks has a problem, since they always see you upset at his wrong doings and acting out to stand up for yourself.

“It is quite common for sociopaths to create a sense of similarity and intimacy. They will tell you that you are the only person who understands them, that you are their special “soul mate.”

I remember not too long ago, he quoted from the funny kids movie, ‘Hotel Transylvania’, “You are my zing babe!” and flavored me with affection, devotion, commitment and made me believe we would after all that time get married, have another child and a home together. All those promises left to be met with his illusion and fantasy that he kept me hanging on by a string, with hopes for the future, and his unreliable stability and consistent change of heart.

Numerous times after he disappeared into his triggered state of whatever psychosis or personality state he has (bipolar, psychopathic, mama’s boy, womanizer, schizoid), and stayed there for a long time, I would be left to accept that he was a different person, and the man I loved with all my heart, completely pulled his heart back from me, and I was now talking to a different human being. No amount of my loving coaching, counseling techniques, patience, listening, and gentle healing love would make any different what-so-ever. He was an all-together different person now. Something triggered it, and usually it was from my desire of being close and intimate, have sex, or connect in a beautiful emotional way. Sometimes, and often times it was also something else. Sometimes just looking at him would do it, or rejecting and counter-offering another suggestion of doing something, anything other than what his direct focus was on. Any disapproval of his objective and focus was a complete insult to his ego. He was flabbergasted, and would complain you didn’t accept him fully and unconditionally. So, it left you unable to have your own opinion about anything. His objective was to keep you quiet, make you think you’re wrong, and reject you again and again!

If you tried to help him, talk to him about his feelings or why you felt his grilling anger, as though he was chewing his own teeth, and ready to scream at any moment, he would blame you for making his life stressful; for the mere act of asking him what was wrong. It was like being a therapist to your lover, but with no results. Gaining results always makes one feel as if what they are doing is helpful, but his rejection to first intimacy, and then rejection to talking, to then leaving all-together makes your efforts seems all the more worth-less.

The only thing left, is to accept it, grieve him, and then grieve some more! Anyone have a box of tissues? You might need them after reading this, and dealing with someone who runs for the wolves when you’re offering a sweet bed of flowers, and even some massage oil, satin sheets, and comfy gel pillows! Ahh, that sounds really nice!

Sexy Charming and Abusive

Sexy Charming and Abusive

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A real abuser is always sexy, charming and immature. (mine was as sexy as him)

Sexy Charming and Abusive

If your best friend, your lover, (husband, boyfriend, wife or girlfriend) is also your abuser, people may have told you time and time again to just leave the jerk.  And if you looked at them with perplexed eyes, feeling despair and hopelessness, because that one action seemed impossible, you are right! It is nearly impossible!

Leaving your lover, who is also your best friend, and is also your abuser, and is the one thing that scares you, threatens you, and risks your life on a daily basis, the decision of leaving may be impossible. Or, if you have tried leaving, perhaps they used their sexy charm and manipulation to win you back, just when you were catching on to their seduction, abuse, and lies.

Perhaps when you had made requests of intimacy time and time again, and they made excuse after excuse not to be intimate, and you got fed up, left, started dating others, were even starting new relationships, or attempting to, and they jumped in, only to stir your emotions again, dangle their carrot, and seduce you back into the bedroom again. Perhaps you caught on to their pattern of luring you in only after you had waited months and months, and then when they finally had you, they withdrew their love again, pushed you away, and became rageful, hurtful and even vengeful when you made requests to be intimate, or didn’t understand where their anger was coming from!

In the book, The Manipulative Man, by: Dorothy McCoy, Ed.D, it says:

Arrogant men are an annoyance. Narcissistic men and Womanizers turn our lives into a challenging game, as we attempt to stay ahead of their scheming, self-indulgent behavior. Beyond annoyance and challenge, we enter the darker side of human nature — violence. Hostile men would crush our spirits and redefine “who we are” as “who we should be.” Their view of relationships is dominance over driven and idiosyncratic.

After my husband had left to the mid west, going out there to plant seeds of getting a place to live and work, for our family, he arrived home and switched gears. He became a completely different person. His facial expressions, tone of voice, body language and goals all had changed. I was still in the mind-set of the goals we had prior. He had a different agenda. I had missed him, and wanted intimacy, to be close to him. I ignored the warning signs that he had switched, and in the moment he touched me, I saw his disassociation, and he crossed my boundaries, touching me aggressively and hurt me. His words, “I’m tired of you wanting to be gentle. My fingers like to be just as aggressive as my mouth.” In the moment I froze, and stayed quiet, as I figured out he had changed, and became someone evil.

The book states also, Intimidation is a crude, primitive form of manipulation employed by men who must control and dominate, much as other men must breathe. In most cases, these men will not change and they certainly won’t change to please us.

I tried to explain to him, that his touching was hurtful and to please be gentle, but he couldn’t hear me. He wasn’t listening, and it felt as though he wasn’t even in his own body. I felt his anger and distaste for my words, and no soothing words I spoke made any difference. The only solution was to pull away, and instead of responding in anger as a normal person would, I knew I had to protect myself from the rage I could feel he was feeling. I went in to speaking to him, as a counselor, asking why he was angry and where it was coming from, and assuring him that perhaps something happened while he was away that upset him. He continued in his denial of his feelings, and I remained calm and centered so as to not anger him further. Instead of standing up for myself or protecting myself, I knew that would enrage him further than he already was.

Our goals must then be revised to accommodate this new circumstance (violence). Then, our new goals become (1) to avoid pain and injury and (2) to gain independence from the violent male. If you believe it is easy to leave a violent man, you have been given inaccurate information. Women in strongly aggressive relationships are more at risk when they attempt to leave or after they leave.

It’s been one year since my abuser and I have separated. I’m starting to slowly gain back my spirit and power. It is true, I was in a funk and had anxiety during the first 6 months of separation, as my body was adjusting to leaving what it was used to constantly needing to defend. During the time he left to mid-west, and after the filing of protection and separation from him for nearly 2 months, all darkness of the truth was revealed to the light, and I had awareness more than I had in the last 10 years. I knew he was mentally ill, and may never get better or get help. And, I knew I had to leave the relationship for the last time (lest he ever prove to me that he had begun treatment, therapy or done something extraordinary to heal his mental condition).

In my heart he is still my best friend, however co-parenting is much healthier and safer without stirring intimacy into the mix, so as to avoid any intimacy triggers that will push him over the edge back into his abusive behaviors once again. It’s best to leave those triggers at bay, and create intimacy with others who have a healthy relationship with love and sexuality. Let’s create the least stressful life as possible, and the most ease! It’s been a long ten year journey, to finally be ready (and able) to walk away from someone who showed red flags within the first three weeks. Next time, it’s time to listen to them!

And perhaps too, he’s giving me a gift this time. By rejecting me he’s actually keeping me from repeating the cycle. There just might be a part of him that is healthy, that he knows he is incapable of loving me without chaos. I’m grateful for his rejection. It’s giving me a chance to let go.

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I realize this blog post is off topic to the theme of this blog, however, I decided to be bold, honest and tell the truth. After all, we’re talking about sex and relationships aren’t we? I’m feeling my writers block starting to dissipate, and I am in fear of sharing the truth no longer! I have been working on creating videos on my TrueTantra.net site, and wrote a post when I was in the midst of grieving and detoxing this situation months ago at IntuitiveSoulHealings.com/relationship-trauma-anxiety/. I actually had writers block all year because of this. And started to tackle some personal health matters I am passionate about. I shifted gears to writing a funny children’s story while waiting for my writers block to disappear, and this here is perhaps my first truth writing where I can see things clearly, and the dark cloud I was in all year is finally gone! Don’t think I’m in a funk anymore, because I’m not! It just takes me a while to write, and usually its after all is well done and over, revealing what I had overcome! So, this is my writing in sharing, I have overcome this, and am truly grateful! We all have our journey’s! (And yes, I’ll continue to work on this journey while coming back to my passion and what I love…my spiritual and tantric life and love for sharing!)

If this post has any relevance to you, check out psychopathyawareness.wordpress.com. It’s FILLED with helpful information!

Breakthrough instead of Breakup

Breakthrough instead of Breakup

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When a couple has a falling out, and there is a misunderstanding and disagreement, why is that one person in the relationship wants to work things out, and the other wants to run from the relationship all together?

The one person loves deeply, and wants to talk things through, heal, take time to sort out misunderstandings. The other wants to run from their feelings, hide, disappear and not deal with their feelings at all, until later, alone and separate from the situation, and in silence.  Who is right in this scenario? What is the best outcome? Perhaps both solutions are correct, and there are many ways of sorting out things. What one person sees as the answer, might be right. And, what another person sees as an answer, the other person objects. However, in the end, if you believe you are right, you’re right! It doesn’t matter how something is resolved, as long as it is resolved, within yourself.

When one lover wants to sort things out, and the other lover is scared, sometimes it is best to let the scared lover take their time to heal. Sometimes the only way they heal is through time, separation and silence. If you are willing to give that lover his space, perhaps that solution can work, so long as you too are getting the support you need as well.

One may ask, how much is too much to take? Or how much is one willing to handle? But, for love, who isn’t willing to fight? Who isn’t willing to stand for the one they love? If not, perhaps it never was love to begin with.

Ancient soul love is worth the distance it takes to keep it alive. Even when a couple is very different in their thinking, or processing and one has an imbalance in their mind, the stronger person is always the one to keep things intact. It is always the stronger person who is the anchor, to keep things alive, to heal, to transform and to love.

Venus and Sex

Venus and Sex

Venus and Sex

So, I’m going to get into a little Astrology here. When it comes to relationships and our sexual desires, venus runs the show! We may think that its our minds, our hearts and our bodies that run the show, and that is certainly part of it, however, venus is the ruler behind all of it.

So, let me share the signs.

If your Venus is in Aquarius, you will pretty much do whatever you feel like. Venus in Aquarius loves everyone, and they don’t exactly like to be tied down to anyone in particular either. Venus in Aquarius likes to be free, they like to party, have fun, and be like a child always. They are a friend to all, and don’t like to hurt anyone’s feelings either, but they will always make sure their needs are met, even if they are attempting to make others happy too. And, in the end, no one can make anyone happy but them-self, and they try to stick to this motto. They are best with lovers who can accept them in their need for freedom, or they will move on to someone else.

If your Venus is in Pisces, you are the Intuitive Lover! You’ll be easily moved to emotional connection, and your emotions will guide you to your sexuality. If you are in love, and your feelings are hurt, your arousal may be quickly turned off. However, you are a water sign, so if you have a lot of passion, a lot of water will rise and bring your passions back alive. Pisces is the sign of the sensitive lover, and they feel everything inside of them. They move often like water, so in order to keep up with them, its best to try to move with them. Pisces is the kind lover, so they will often think of others before thinking of them-self. Whatever the other partner wants, they will do what they can, to make them happy.

If your Venus is in Aries, you may be quick to decide to be involved with someone, get sexual very quickly, and just as quickly decide you don’t like them anymore, and not put much effort into keeping it going. Aries is a fire sign, and can get hot very quickly, anger, frustration quickly, and sizzle out just as fast. So, the best way to keep a Venus in Aries in your life, is to not make them angry, or do what you can to make them fall back in love all over again.

If your Venus is in Taurus, you might be very committed, sensual, and loyal to the core. Taurus is the tantric master, and are very grounded in their love making, like to move very slowly, are the leaders of foreplay, and can take as long as needed. They don’t like to share their partners, and consider their partners their own possession, so they would not want to go out searching for extra lovers, even when troubles arise.

If your Venus is in Gemini, you might be a very talkative lover, you may love to laugh and giggle in bed, and be prone to making your lover laugh as well, or talk their head off and they may want you to “shut up” sometimes. A Gemini Venus would be a very creative lover, and more detached. When a relationship ends, it might be easy for you to move on and go to the next partner. They would have an easy time with polyamory, and less clingy or possessive than other signs.

If your Venus is in Cancer, you would be very clingy to your lover, not want to share at all, and feelings would get hurt easily. Venus in Cancer would have a hard time with polyamory, and may not even think of it. Family comes first with Cancer, and they may want to include their relationship into their family, and if they cannot include their partner into their family, they may not feel as though the relationship is a good match. Venus in Cancer in bed, may want to cuddle for hours, make love for hours, and hold onto their lover for a long time. They are very affectionate, sensitive, and emotional.

If your Venus is in Leo, you may want to run the show, lead the bed-style so to speak, and take charge of your sexual interactions. Venus in Leo would be very loyal, and proud of their partner. Leo likes to be playful, child-like and innocent. They are kind, giving and selfless. They too would not want to open the relationship to others. Leo’s are loyal, committed, and usually stay with their partner for a long time.

If your Venus is in Virgo, you may be the most detail oriented lover there is. You may have an idea of how you want your sexual interactions to go, and be very clear they are the best, and if your lover does not surrender to these desires, there could be problems. Love making to you will be like art, very precise, beautiful and divine. You would be best matched with another venus lover in an earth sign , like Venus in Capricorn, Taurus or Virgo (or possibly the water signs of Pisces, Cancer, and Scorpio). Venus in Virgo would not want to be polyamorous. They are happiest with a committed partner.

If your Venus is in Libra, your desire for harmony and balance overpowers everything else. Your sexual drive will most likely be high. You are an air sign, and will be aroused through the intellect. You are best matched with other creative signs. Venus in Libra would be very romantic, and do what they can to keep the romance alive. In relationships, you want everyone to be happy, so if your partner is not happy, deep down, you cannot be fully happy either. You will do everything you can to make all people involved feel equally loved, supported and nurtured, whether it is a one on one relationship, or more.

If your Venus is in Scorpio, you will be the most possessive, controlling and demanding lover there is. You will be prone to go down dark paths, and do mysterious acts such as BDSM, bondage, torture play, blood play, knife play, anything kinky and wild, possibly journey torture chambers, hand cuffs, all kinds of sex toys, swingers clubs, or anyplace you can show up with your lover in chains, and more. Venus in Scorpio does NOT want to share his or her lover, and will do everything wild and eccentric to make their lover happy. Venus in Scorpio wants to be the boss, and once you are in their web, they don’t ever want you to leave. If you have an affair however, and they find out, their anger will take over, and they will shut you out of their cave forever. Forgiveness does not come easily with Scorpio, and you may be waiting a very long time.

If your Venus is in Sagittarius, however, you have the most free lover there is, even more so than Aquarius. Venus in Sagittarius likes to be the leader, but they are also the least detached emotional lover there is. They like to bring spirituality into their relationships and love making, and bring a sort of transcendental enlightened wisdom to the bedroom. They love big, but do not want to be held down. They are best with a lover who can honor their power and their need for freedom. They need to be held to the highest degree of their power and freedom, and if they are not, they will move onto to another partner who can appreciate and honor this aspect of them. It is a part of their soul and they cannot be anything else. They are best matched with another Venus in fire or air signs.

If your Venus is in Capricorn, you have the sensual sexual energy of Taurus, and are also extremely tantric, however, the grounding of taurus goes deeper with capricorn, and they are like ice and stuck like glue to their chosen lover. Once they have fallen in love with a partner, they want to mate for life with this partner. They immediately have desires of marriage, commitment, family and children. And, when troubles arise with the relationship, even after many months, they still keep their heart tied to the same partner, and will work through any challenges that arise to keep that love alive. It is very difficult for Venus in Capricorn to share their lover, or move on, even when it seems obvious to everyone around them it is time to let go. Venus in Capricorn, in their heart, mates for life, and even if they have a new relationship, will love their ex lover as though they were together just the day before! (They are best matched with other earth signs or water).

So, find out your true Venus sign, and you will know who you really are in the bedroom, and all the lovers you have ever been with!

Inspired from studying Jyotish Astrology lately, after studying western astrology since 1984.

Resource:

http://OnlineJyotish.org

Forcing Intimacy Too Soon

Forcing Intimacy Too Soon

forcing intimacy too soonForcing Intimacy too Soon (Or rather, Forcing a Committed Relationship Too Soon)

I find it so interesting that men try to push themselves on women, who is not quite ready to be involved in a romantic or serious way. Perhaps the woman recently got out of a relationship, and just would like a friend, maybe a lover, but not quite a serious relationship. It irks me to no end when these guys just throw themselves on a woman, and she has all her walls up, is still working through the pain from the relationship before, and then he gets angry, demanding or feels like she’s rejecting him when she made it utterly clear, she was not ready.

I call this bad boundaries or lack of compatibility. Come on guys! Give her a chance to at least move on. And, if she’s still with the guy, you’re most surely going to be disappointed. Don’t force her when she hasn’t even begun to let go.

I’ve had friend after friend, who originally said they could be friends, but then along the line they fell in love with me, and then made me wrong that I was still in love with someone else. “Hello!!!! I already told you!” It’s as though they thought I would change my mind, or I would magically have let him go, my heart be blasted open, and just jump into the game of another serious relationship right away. Perhaps some women can do this, but I cannot. And I find it utterly distasteful that some men expect a woman to just get on with it, and move on right away.

Perhaps those who have the ability to do this, weren’t in fact in love with their previous partner at all. And, for them, it is much easier. And, maybe, if she’s not wanting you, perhaps your aggressiveness in the matter is what is causing her distaste. A woman needs time, she is a gentle flower, and needs her petals to be opened lovingly, with kindness and softness. When she is ready, she’ll know!

This makes sense as to why a woman who was so deeply in love with a man, where they split up, spent months and months apart, and one or both of them tried to be involved with someone else, but in fact, they were still in love with each other. And, then the new person (people) come along and try to force them to fall in love. They’re totally turned off by the force and aggressiveness. And, then time rolls around the clock and their true beloved comes back again, and they are able to easily jump into each others hearts again too. Because during their separation, the people around them, didn’t support them to grieve. All they felt was annoyance and desire to keep distant from the new people, because they needed time. I get it now. i totally get it.

So couples that break up and get back together over and over again, repeat the cycle often, because their support system wasn’t that supportive, and they never had a chance to fully let go.

We all need friends, and affection when we’re grieving and healing from the loss of a loved one, but we certainly don’t need force. And, in time, the heart does open again (with a little extra support from conscious friends, community, healing and love).

(Inspired from multiple friends who were a little too aggressive and needy with me, and my love for New Moon; a movie where the guy friend got utterly jealous and demanding when the main character, Bella, was obviously in love with someone else).

Asttarte

Intimacy to Healing

It is a beaIntimacy to Healingutiful experience when one can allow themselves the pleasure of pure and innocent connection, love, holding and cuddling! Sometimes new energy opens, expands, clears and heals in this innocent encounter. Cuddling with a stranger is a beautiful thing, but cuddling with someone you love, feel deeply safe with, connected and care for is a whole different experience. Perhaps your Beloved, your husband or wife in sharing this cuddling is an ultimate high, to allow your heart to flow back to its true fluidity, and open up to intimacy, sensuality and sexuality. In this, sex can become a gentle, tantric, healing experience!

I love when my heart opens after deep energetic cuddling and connection! I love when my energy lifts, clears, and is filled with divine sacred union. I am grateful for the awareness of this energy, and the love within my heart!

Who have you cuddled with lately?

What have you gotten out of its experience?

Have you cuddled with a friend, a lover, a boyfriend/girlfriend, husband or wife?

How did this make you feel?

Did it open you up to deeper intimacy with someone else, your significant other, husband/wife?

Did it warm your heart and make you feel more connected to the universe/appreciation?

I’d love to hear what it created for you, and how it inspired you! Please use this blog as a means to write for yourself!

Blessings and Namaste,

Asttarte

Take Time to Love Him

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Do you make the time to be alone with your beloved husband or boyfriend (or girlfriend if you a lesbian)? Do you create quality time despite the fact that you have a job, or a family, or a career, are self employed, need to go grocery shopping, do the laundry, meet with your girlfriends and relax just to be with you, or any other number of reasons you would keep distant from the most important person in your life? And speaking of reasons, we ALL have plenty of reasons for being alone, for being single, for creating separation or distance from our loved ones, but we ALSO have many reasons for choosing to create connection with them as well.

Perhaps you’re angry at your partner, or ex, and you are now choosing to hold onto resentment because you don’t trust anymore, or you are wallowing in self pity, perhaps you’re blaming them for your problems, or all your friends cheer you on that he/she was the asshole! Whoohoo, let’s bash down our most precious partner to make us feel justified that we were right. That feels OH so good! BullS!!!! Do you really want to be putting down the one person you are more connected to in your heart? Does it truly make you feel good about yourself that you’re pulling away because you’re angry? And perhaps, just perhaps they aren’t even angry at you at all. It’s you who has the anger or resentment in your heart. And that truly does just eat away at you. You can be filled by the energy of anger for months and even years, and it surely will give you lots of energy to continue to put down any potential of connection or love, but the rewards are SO much greater when you can shift and transcend this energy into forgiveness and then love, and allow this same person you have deeply cared about all this time back into your heart!

When you take the time to love the person you LOVE, what will you receive:

  • A knowing of forgiveness and an opening in your heart
  • The potential of falling in love all over again!
  • Peace of mind, joy and serenity
  • bliss
  • the return of GREAT sex
  • more energy to do the things you WANT and need to do
  • understanding of each other on a greater level
  • a best friend
  • knowing yourself at a greater level
  • better sleep
  • a calm mind
  • a sense of ease and satisfaction
  • LOVE!!!!

When you take the time to love the most important person in your life, you’re not only giving him/her the greatest gift, you’re also giving it to yourself as it returns back to you MULTIPLIED!!!!

I honor and celebrate all who can fall in love over and over and over again, or those who want to experience this to know IT IS possible in any moment. It’s your choice! Always, always choose love! It’s the greatest gift of all! And right now in our world, love is the greatest treasure to behold and the gift that will allow us to continue to shine! WE are our future, and our future is NOW! Choose love, and love will choose you!

Blessings and love and Namaste~

Aventurine Mala Beads

I spent most of today trying to purchase a different mala bead made out of Aventurine and the transaction simply could NOT go through. I tried multiple ways, and numerous times, and even called and spoke live to Paypal. It ended up that I would have needed to  get a Money Order or be treated by an awesome friend (which may still happen), however, I found these and love how they wrap around the wrist so easily, are loose and still have the potential of adding my own Tree of Life charm on it. I’m going to learn how to do this, and add an attachable piece to the entire mala. This could be the beginning of a new journey, and perhaps an extra source of income if I go all the way!

Here is the Tree of Life charm I found as well:

The reason I am so passionate about this is because my health is going through a transition and is in need of support and healing at the time. The more stones for healing my stomach and immune system situation the better!

TAYA TAH OM BEKANDZAY BEKANDZAY MAHA BEKANDZAY BEKANDZAY RANDZA SAMOON GATAY SOHA 108x

What’s totally amazing is I found this in my book; Crystal Workbook; The Spiritual, Healing, Transformational & Metaphysical Properties Of Crystals and Healing Stones, by Sheril Berkovitch. This is SO perfect; maybe better than the other anyway (especially if I can figure out how to get the Tree of Life on there):

CHRYSOCOLLA:

“Chakra: Throat, Heart and Third Eye

Chrysocolla helps clarify your spiritual purpose by alleviating the fear of expression. It also helps clear links with the past as you move forward. Enhances creative expression, power and communication. Helps prevent dis-ease caused by stress such as ulcers, digestive problems and arthritis.

This stone is an activator of feminine qualities. It is used by women to alleviate situations such as menstrual irregularity and the birthing process. Useful for men wishing to seek out their feminine aspects.

Chrysocolla provides a link to Mother Earth both physically and spiritually. Relieves distress caused by negative emotions. Enhances insight.”

39″ Mala Necklace with 98-8mm Dark Green Aventurine Beads, 10-8mm Chrysocolla beads and finished with a pewter ‘Guru’ bead.

AVENTURINE:

Chakra: Heart

Enhances creativity, brings prosperity, reinforces decisiveness. Diffuses negativity, balances male-female energy. Helps see alternatives and possibilities. It facilitates balancing and alignment of the intellectual, emotional, physical and auric bodies! Promotes growth during first seven years of life. Benefits thymus gland and nervous system. Balances blood pressure. It has been used in treatment of disorders for the lungs, heart, adrenal glands, and the muscular and urogenital systems. Elixir aids shin problems.

It is an excellent protector of the heart chakra; providing for a shield to block the entry from those who wish to “tap-in” and use the energy of another. (Meaning: helps block energy vampires, which is VERY important while healing a health condition and staying in the light.)

It has been used in rituals of the Medicine Wheel, to show the spirit guides the connection with the healing light of the heart.

Green Aventurine also helps to release anxiety and fear, stimulates muscle tissue and strengthens blood. It will help you move on from a limited view of your capabilities! It encourages exploration and creativity, and is helpful in career assessment and changes. It assists in bringing feelings of emotional tranquility and a positive attitude. Excellent for times of emotional turmoil and stress to assist in balancing. “An all-around healer!”

Independence, health and well-being!

(Sources: Love is In The Earth, and Crystal Workbook)

Description from the site:

Hold or place on the appropriate point.

108 Bead Japa Mala or Mala Necklace (Meditation Beads)

Mala beads can be worn and/or used for meditation. A mala is a string of 108 beads with one bead as the summit bead called a ‘sumeru’. When used for meditation they can aid in focusing by helping to keep the mind from wondering and helping to keep one from falling asleep. It is important that if a mala is used to count mantras, the mantra be remembered with sincerity, devotion, feeling and full attention. There are many, many reasons as to why there are 108 beads. Here are a few of my favorite:

-In traditional Buddhist thought, people are said to have 108 afflictions or klesas. There are six senses (sight, sound, smell, taste, touch, and consciousness) multiplied by three reactions (positive, negative, or indifference) making 18 “feelings.” Each of these feelings can be either “attached to pleasure or detached from pleasure” making 36 “passions”, each of which may be manifested in the past, present, or future. All the combinations of all these things makes a total of 108, which are represented by the beads in the ojuzu.
-There are said to be 108 earthly desires in mortals.
-There are said to be 108 lies that humans tell.
-There are said to be 108 human delusions or forms of ignorance.
-The diameter of the Sun is 108 times the diameter of the Earth. The distance from the Sun to the Earth is 108 times the diameter of the Sun.
-The average distance of the Moon from the Earth is 108 times the diameter of the Moon.
-Some say there are 108 styles of meditation.

How to use:

The mala is traditionally held in the right hand and used in two ways –

In one method, the mala is hanging between the thumb and the ring (third) finger. The middle (second) finger is used to rotate the mala by one bead towards oneself with each repetition of the mantra.

In the other method, the mala is hanging on the middle finger, with the thumb used to rotate the mala just as explained – one bead at a time.

Either way, the index finger is never used to touch the mala.

“There are accupressure points on each of the fingers that work on different parts of the psyche and the brain.  When the beads press the meridian points in the finger, you can work on a specific result. The meridian point you are trying to activate is located on the side of each finger, in the center point between the tip of the finger and the upper knuckle.
The properties of the meridian points for each finger are as follows:

“Hindu tradition holds that the correct way to use a mala is with the right hand, with the thumb flicking one bead to the next, and with the mala wrapped over the middle finger. Generally do not use the index finger as in ancient times it was thought use of the index finger was bad mannered and also facilitates karma.

Buddhists generally hold the mala in the left hand. The first bead is held between the index finger and thumb, and with each count the thumb pulls another bead in place over the index fingerAfter completing a full circuit of the mala, the practitioner flips the mala around 180 degrees. Continuing over the guru bead is like crossing your teacher.” http://mala-beads.50webs.com/aboutmalas.html

 

The mala may coil on the floor with the hand resting on the right knee or used with the hand concealed in the mala bag.

The practice begins at the summit bead (sumeru) and continues around the loop until the summit is reached again. The summit bead is never passed over. So if you plan to do more than 1 round, the mala is turned around to proceed again in the reverse direction.

Whenever the mala is taken up, it automatically conditions the mind to the meditative state. The mala that you use for Mantra Japa meditation should not be exhibited and is best kept privately in a special mala bag.

*Free pouch with this purchase!*

*No claims are made. These alleged powers are gathered from writing, books, folklore and various sources.*

From the amazing creator at etsy.com Sunny’s Profile

This is the other one I love I’ve been trying to get:

What if You’re Still Healing?

What if You’re Still Healing?

What if you’re still healing and there’s someone you love who’s worse off than you?

If you’re still healing, then all the more reason to be a motivation for the person you love. If you’re still healing, you have wisdom and experience they don’t quite understand. You can help them stick to their commitment to heal. You could be their guiding force, while you’re still taking control of your own life and helping yourself. They say, “one must help themselves before they can help another.” Yes, this is true, and when you have helped yourself, and have some experience, and there is another human being dear to you, you have the wisdom to make the assessment if they need help, and can make simple suggestions based on your view of them what they might be drawn to, or some simple paths to start. And, if you don’t, you just might know some people who can lead the way instead.

When you’re still healing and you also want to help someone else, great! You’re on the journey, you’re on the path, and no one is perfect. If you’re still alive, you’ll probably always be healing, or always be growing toward greater enlightenment, greater fulfillment and greater peace within yourself.

Sometimes, when you’re still healing, it makes you feel so much better about yourself, when you can support another as well. When you take the focus off of yourself for a while, it can be an instant boost to your own confidence, and sometimes shifting focus alone can make one feel especially good and loved!

The Man as Woman, the Woman as Man

The Man as Woman, the Woman as Man

imagesWhat do you do when the man is more like a woman and the woman is more like a man? Where does this come from? Is it a genetic mix up? Is it past lives?

When your man acts more like a woman; hyper sensitive (even more than you), and squirms at the tiniest little changes, or communication that might stir up his emotions, what do you do? Do you wonder, does he have a mental illness? Is he on hyper alert? Was he abused as a child, neglected, or is something else going on?

And, when you love him, how do you keep your center and your ground to support him through his hyper emotions?

One thing I would start with is to give him time. Give him space. Let him have his tantrum. Know it is not you. He is a very emotional guy and he needs a lot of time alone. He will work through this pout in his own time, and when he is ready he will show up again.

Are you willing to put up with his emotional tantrums, or would you rather walk away?

Sometimes you can get SO irritated from your man’s running away, or hyper alter sensitivity that you would MUCH rather have a guy who can hold you in your power; hold you in your love. And, perhaps you DO deserve that, but you can still choose to love those who also might not be as strong as you would prefer.

The benefits to a man being so sensitive:

He may actually understand when you are going through something that is NOT directed at him. He may be able to talk to you deeply about your process. He may be willing to be there for you to comfort you in times of your own sadness, or premenstrual process. He may truly get it when YOU yourself need space and be able to give that to you without taking it personally.

If you have to do all the work; all the compromising, all the accepting, forgiving, letting go, you may very well have good reason to walk away. And, what would be SO powerful and supportive for you is to have a group of friends to talk to, a support group, a Meetup Group to go to, a 12 Step Program perhaps (Al-Anon), a church Group, your family if you’re close to them, or a Counselor or Therapist to talk to. You want to talk to people who are going to be supportive to your goal, and not try to pull you away from what you want, but also people who are going to help you gain your power, hold you in your strength, offer a listening ear, and a compassionate voice.

Forgiveness & Acceptance

Forgiveness & Acceptance

forgiveness and acceptanceI heard a story today of a woman who shared her experience with her ex-husband. She had been dealing with a custody battle for years and came to feel as though none of her inputs, feelings, or concerns were given any consideration. She had an agreement set up with her ex-husband on the days he would be with her children and the days she would be with her children.

The holidays are coming and she had said, “I don’t have a good experience with the holidays and I always look forward to when they are over.” Her ex-husband knew she was to spend Thursday with her children, but he then asserted that he was going to take the children that day. Then he casually mentioned that he was also going to be taking the children to someone in his family on Saturday, when Saturday was also a day scheduled for her to be with her children.

It was a situation I could not do anything about, other than listen. And, as I heard her speak, I heard more and more of my own situation that I USED TO have, that I now NO LONGER have. I wanted to offer her my suggestions and perhaps a new viewpoint that might help her. She sort of was playing the victim role and didn’t seem to realize how she was being responsible in the situation. She was blaming, acting entitled, was judging and holding onto the pattern of this relationship and how it had been going on for years.

If I could put my two sense into this situation for this woman, I would ask her to consider how she is being is responsible; if she can see how he feels, what she is still holding onto from the past, how she is blaming, judging, nitpicking and playing the role of the victim. She is playing the advocate for helping women who have gone through divorce, but it seems her heart is very much still hurting and she covers it up with a powerful confidence. My hope for her, is that she learns to forgive him, accepts the situation, learns to listen, and can one day surrender to this mans feelings. This may be the one thing that could bring peace to her family, and perhaps friendship between the two of them, instead of animosity!

Intention of a Temple Home

The Temple Home will be offering a whole body Retreat Center for Healing, Yoga, relaxation, therapy and Transformation in Philadelphia.

Yin Yoga Classes
Reiki Classes & Certifications
Massage Therapy Sessions
Acupressure Sessions
Healing Classes
Meditation Classes

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Also, check out the new website for the Healing & Retreat Center with a complete integration of all possible sessions and spiritual awakenings available!

Location of home is yet to be determined. Open to discussion on possible locations in the Philadelphia area.

Specific Energy Healing Treatments:

Specific Energy Healing Treatments:


Healing Sessions of Energy Healing –

Usui Reiki

This is a very gentle form of reiki. It can be used to heal physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual parts of ourselves. It is a very powerful, yet, subtle shift in our awareness. One must be able to sense energy to feel its power and presence, otherwise, it may feel like nothing is being done at all.


Shamballa Reiki

Shamballa Reiki is a form of reiki that utilizes all the symbols of Usui Reiki, as well as Karuna Reiki, Tera-Mei Seichem Reiki and more. Shamballa Reiki has over 300 symbols that can be accessed and used when a practitioner, and some channeled are often symbols of Shamballa. This energy is like a lightning bolt of fire and goes very deep and creates a feeling of intensity.

Tera-Mei Seichem Reiki

Tera-Mei Seichem is another form of Reiki not often spoken of. It is a highly vibrational form of healing, however, with a very subtle vibration. Tera-Mei Seichem is quite unique since its’ energies are of the elements of our Mother Earth; earth, air, fire, water, and spirit. It helps for grounding, intensifying healing, heals from the root cause, gentle love from a higher source, and assists to manifest your desires.


Kundalini Reiki

Kundalini Reiki is a very safe and gentle way to awaken Kundalini energy. The Kundalini energy is also referred to as ”the Kundalini Fire”. The energy runs up through the body, through the “main energy channel”, and out of the Crown chakra on the top of the head. An open Kundalini means that over a period of time, a complete cleansing of the chakras, the body and the energy channels are open.


IET – Integrative Energy Therapy –

Integrated Energy Therapy Integrated Energy Therapy is a form of healing that uses acupressure and a hand gesture technique to cleanse the physical body and aura of emotional blocks from the present or past. IET cleanses the body internally and externally, using a method to pull the energies out from the body clearing the aura, or energy field with a simple movement of the hand in connection with the acupressure point the practitioner holds. It helps to relax and rejuvenate the individual and gives a feeling of complete lightness after a session. IET is a frequency of energy connected with Angel Ariel or any being the practitioner feels draw to the most, but directly links their heart chakra to the heart chakra of the divine.

Igilli Energy Healing –

Igili Energy Therapy is a light gentle touch energy therapy where one feels relaxed and at peace within. Igili Energy Therapy was incorporated into formal teachings by founder Victoria Pendragon who named the technique in honor of a group of 7 angels from the Pleiades. Igili healing occurs when the practitioner’s energy goes into the body and stays there so that the person can learn why the imbalanced energies started in the first place. In an Igili Healing session, energies are integrated and dissolved within the body, rather than released like other healing systems. Healing energy from Igili supports an individual in a space of loving compassion so that harmful imbalanced energies dissolve over time.


Frequency Balancing –

Frequency Balancing is a treatment modality that focuses on balancing the four main components of the human energy system. (Four of the main components of the human energy system are: Acupuncture/meridian lines, Chi – the energy that runs through the meridian lines, your aura, and the chakras – the energy center that receive and send chi throughout your body). Frequency Balancing is for people who want to come back to balance. During a FB session, I will intuitively scan your body for the blocks, and then use methods of clearing and remove the excess energies that are no longer needed. Frequency Balancing is a method of energy healing where I use my hand as a laser to clear away any stuck energy, as a light coming out of a wand, or an invisible ball of light to create a vortex for cleansing. FB helps people to reduce stress, promote healing, balance emotions, clear a person’s energy meridians and balance the main energy centers of the body (the front and back major chakras).


Axiotonal Alignments

When you receive a Full Body Axiotonal Alignment, you connect to the cosmic lattice, clearing your meridian lines, and balancing your chakras. It helps one to re-establish a connection to your Overself/oversoul bringing “the energy of the future” to you.

Intuitive Healing Sessions – Intuitive Healing Sessions can incorporate any form of healing I offer. These sessions are guided and there is no protocol for what may happen. It is a place where we let go and surrender to what may come!

Fees: $100 to $150 an hour depending on your circumstances!


I am guided in all the work I do.

I sometimes use: crystals, colors, incense, healing cards, a pendulum, white sage &/or sweet grass, candles, and soft music. Energy sessions and massage sessions are quite different, although they are often incorporated together, depending on the individual’s wants and needs.