How Do You Nurture Yourself?

How Do You Nurture Yourself?

how do you future yourselfHow Do You Nurture Yourself?

How you nurture yourself all depends on what it is you are dealing with in your personal life.

Are you dealing with health matters?

Are you having relationship challenges and feeling your partner at arms length?

Is your family avoiding you and ignoring you or your feelings?

Are you having a higher level of stress and anxiety than normal?

Are you feeling more angry than normal, more tired than normal?

Are you feeling isolated, alone, sad?

How do you nurture yourself in these different situations? They each have different paths one would take to feel better, heal, come to solutions or happiness depending on the circumstance.

The first thing that is helpful is to do a daily meditation practice. You can start with 10 minutes, 15 minutes, 20 minutes, or 30 minutes. Just that short window of time will make you feel so much better. some people like to jump in and start with an hour. If you have the time, go for the hour. If not, try a smaller time frame.

Then do something that’s going to nurture your soul, perhaps a new spiritual practice, such as yoga, chakra healing, reading a spiritual book, learning about angels, crystals, breath work, or even getting acupuncture, massage or a reiki treatment.

Another excellent practice is drinking a specific tea that is helpful for your situation. There are many teas on the market, and many you can make at home. Most teas are made with natural herbs and are a cheaper solution than buying multiple bottles of different herbs, or oils. Herbs and essential oils can be costly when buying in bulk, but teas are very affordable. Try to match your situation with the type of tea that would be helpful for that. If you don’t know, try seeking a tea expert, an herbalist, or feel free to reach out to me for suggestions.

Next, write down everything that is going on. It is very helpful to write down your feelings, and using your writing as a sort of therapy. Writing is very cathartic and sometimes when you write down what you feel, what happened, and the situation, it can help you let it go and feel so much better about things. Then you are able to move on from it, and almost feel empowered that you expressed yourself. Some people don’t like to write, but try pushing yourself a little, via a wordpress document, in notes on your computer, or even writing in a spiral notebook or nice journal book. It sometimes feels very good to write things down with a real pen or pencil. It touches a different part of the brain and releases energy pent up in your throat and lower chakras, believe it or not. It’s not going to have the same benefit as a meditation, or chakra healing, but it is still quite powerful.

Are you an artist, musician or do you like doing things with your hands? This could be a great way to nurture your inner self, and help get through a challenging event, experience, or point in your life. You don’t have to be an expert. As long as you do it, put your heart into it and are intentional, anything you do can be helpful, and in the end, amazing!

What is it you are dealing with? Talk to me here! I’m happy to respond!

Sexy Charming and Abusive

Sexy Charming and Abusive

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A real abuser is always sexy, charming and immature. (mine was as sexy as him)

Sexy Charming and Abusive

If your best friend, your lover, (husband, boyfriend, wife or girlfriend) is also your abuser, people may have told you time and time again to just leave the jerk.  And if you looked at them with perplexed eyes, feeling despair and hopelessness, because that one action seemed impossible, you are right! It is nearly impossible!

Leaving your lover, who is also your best friend, and is also your abuser, and is the one thing that scares you, threatens you, and risks your life on a daily basis, the decision of leaving may be impossible. Or, if you have tried leaving, perhaps they used their sexy charm and manipulation to win you back, just when you were catching on to their seduction, abuse, and lies.

Perhaps when you had made requests of intimacy time and time again, and they made excuse after excuse not to be intimate, and you got fed up, left, started dating others, were even starting new relationships, or attempting to, and they jumped in, only to stir your emotions again, dangle their carrot, and seduce you back into the bedroom again. Perhaps you caught on to their pattern of luring you in only after you had waited months and months, and then when they finally had you, they withdrew their love again, pushed you away, and became rageful, hurtful and even vengeful when you made requests to be intimate, or didn’t understand where their anger was coming from!

In the book, The Manipulative Man, by: Dorothy McCoy, Ed.D, it says:

Arrogant men are an annoyance. Narcissistic men and Womanizers turn our lives into a challenging game, as we attempt to stay ahead of their scheming, self-indulgent behavior. Beyond annoyance and challenge, we enter the darker side of human nature — violence. Hostile men would crush our spirits and redefine “who we are” as “who we should be.” Their view of relationships is dominance over driven and idiosyncratic.

After my husband had left to the mid west, going out there to plant seeds of getting a place to live and work, for our family, he arrived home and switched gears. He became a completely different person. His facial expressions, tone of voice, body language and goals all had changed. I was still in the mind-set of the goals we had prior. He had a different agenda. I had missed him, and wanted intimacy, to be close to him. I ignored the warning signs that he had switched, and in the moment he touched me, I saw his disassociation, and he crossed my boundaries, touching me aggressively and hurt me. His words, “I’m tired of you wanting to be gentle. My fingers like to be just as aggressive as my mouth.” In the moment I froze, and stayed quiet, as I figured out he had changed, and became someone evil.

The book states also, Intimidation is a crude, primitive form of manipulation employed by men who must control and dominate, much as other men must breathe. In most cases, these men will not change and they certainly won’t change to please us.

I tried to explain to him, that his touching was hurtful and to please be gentle, but he couldn’t hear me. He wasn’t listening, and it felt as though he wasn’t even in his own body. I felt his anger and distaste for my words, and no soothing words I spoke made any difference. The only solution was to pull away, and instead of responding in anger as a normal person would, I knew I had to protect myself from the rage I could feel he was feeling. I went in to speaking to him, as a counselor, asking why he was angry and where it was coming from, and assuring him that perhaps something happened while he was away that upset him. He continued in his denial of his feelings, and I remained calm and centered so as to not anger him further. Instead of standing up for myself or protecting myself, I knew that would enrage him further than he already was.

Our goals must then be revised to accommodate this new circumstance (violence). Then, our new goals become (1) to avoid pain and injury and (2) to gain independence from the violent male. If you believe it is easy to leave a violent man, you have been given inaccurate information. Women in strongly aggressive relationships are more at risk when they attempt to leave or after they leave.

It’s been one year since my abuser and I have separated. I’m starting to slowly gain back my spirit and power. It is true, I was in a funk and had anxiety during the first 6 months of separation, as my body was adjusting to leaving what it was used to constantly needing to defend. During the time he left to mid-west, and after the filing of protection and separation from him for nearly 2 months, all darkness of the truth was revealed to the light, and I had awareness more than I had in the last 10 years. I knew he was mentally ill, and may never get better or get help. And, I knew I had to leave the relationship for the last time (lest he ever prove to me that he had begun treatment, therapy or done something extraordinary to heal his mental condition).

In my heart he is still my best friend, however co-parenting is much healthier and safer without stirring intimacy into the mix, so as to avoid any intimacy triggers that will push him over the edge back into his abusive behaviors once again. It’s best to leave those triggers at bay, and create intimacy with others who have a healthy relationship with love and sexuality. Let’s create the least stressful life as possible, and the most ease! It’s been a long ten year journey, to finally be ready (and able) to walk away from someone who showed red flags within the first three weeks. Next time, it’s time to listen to them!

And perhaps too, he’s giving me a gift this time. By rejecting me he’s actually keeping me from repeating the cycle. There just might be a part of him that is healthy, that he knows he is incapable of loving me without chaos. I’m grateful for his rejection. It’s giving me a chance to let go.

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I realize this blog post is off topic to the theme of this blog, however, I decided to be bold, honest and tell the truth. After all, we’re talking about sex and relationships aren’t we? I’m feeling my writers block starting to dissipate, and I am in fear of sharing the truth no longer! I have been working on creating videos on my TrueTantra.net site, and wrote a post when I was in the midst of grieving and detoxing this situation months ago at IntuitiveSoulHealings.com/relationship-trauma-anxiety/. I actually had writers block all year because of this. And started to tackle some personal health matters I am passionate about. I shifted gears to writing a funny children’s story while waiting for my writers block to disappear, and this here is perhaps my first truth writing where I can see things clearly, and the dark cloud I was in all year is finally gone! Don’t think I’m in a funk anymore, because I’m not! It just takes me a while to write, and usually its after all is well done and over, revealing what I had overcome! So, this is my writing in sharing, I have overcome this, and am truly grateful! We all have our journey’s! (And yes, I’ll continue to work on this journey while coming back to my passion and what I love…my spiritual and tantric life and love for sharing!)

If this post has any relevance to you, check out psychopathyawareness.wordpress.com. It’s FILLED with helpful information!

Heart Opening

Heart Opening

Heart Opening

I am so utterly and deeply grateful for this past weeks experience, of heart opening, divine inner union, peace and love, and deep connected healing intimacy. As a practitioner, I too, need nurturing, love and connectedness from those who are not my followers or clients, but also to those on a personal intimate level. It has been near one year since my Beloved and I parted ways, and I knew this time, it would sadly be the last. I’ve taken this past year in grieving, letting go, and doing what I could to heal my heart. However, the experience this past week took me over the edge of that heart opening in a way that has been needed for perhaps years.

I went to a spiritual retreat, one that had similarities near and dear to my heart. I’ve been going to see Amma since 1999, however, this event, was unique. Not only did I get to experience the love, kindness and healing of the guru who was leading the retreat, but also got to experience a connected love with a special being who was at this retreat. Perhaps we were breaking a rule, in connecting on an intimate level, however, my heart was screaming yes, and my spirit was leading the way. My soul made the choice to follow this feeling, and in doing so, my heart got to receive a deep connection of love that had kept it guarded for many years. A being who shares love, without concern, without judgment, or body armor, and can just be in the moment, listening, with presence, being intuitively guided, and following his own heart, speaks loudly to my own being. To be touched with divine presence, listening, and an inner knowing, left me speechless, and in absolute joy. My heart broke open as tears ran down my face. He had no idea how long I had been waiting for this heart connection, one that I cannot teach. This way of being must come from within. This way of being must already be known from the lover connecting to the lover. I cannot make another person learn how to be present, to know how to love without pressure, or neediness, clinginess, demanding energy or fear. Whoever, you are, you must come from a place of deep love, and this love is already a part of you. I am grateful to have connected with a being who could offer this, and offer it without expectation.

When a woman receives love in such a way, she has an opportunity to open up her flower, to open up her beauty, her radiance, her power, her pleasure and her joy. She cannot be forced to connect with another. She cannot be expected to be wide open immediately. She must trust her inner knowing, her instincts, and her truth. In this, an expansiveness arises and healing returns!

Love,

Asttarte

He inspired me to let go of worry, and write a book about a topic most definitely needed. I am jumping on this creative passion right now!

Exciting – All Things New!

Exciting – All Things New!

Blessings Beloveds, or those few who find me here,

Today is a new day, and I am here to celebrate! Perhaps this post will cross the boarder to all my blogs, but who knows! It is time now to say good bye to struggle, and survival mode, and move into thriving and celebrating! I am onto bigger and greater things and as I speak, I give forth the ideal of perfection within my soul’s consciousness and midst of dramatic confusion! I have begun a couple new blogs the past month or so, and am raveling in the glory of speaking the truth of who I am; not that I didn’t speak the truth before, but every new layer adds to the dimension of pleasure and joy in this body! As we all open our hearts and our souls, so too does our body follow!

My grandmother had passed in June, and in this she gave me the greatest gift, and I still feel VERY close to her even in her angelic state. I feel as though she is now watching over me, protecting, guarding me and perhaps too guiding me! I surrendered to prayer when she left, and opened my heart back to the written word; the bible, and also to my craft, in wicca, and also to my prayer with Hindu mantras, and too with Buddhist mantras, as well as sensing the presence of angels, and laying down to rest each night feeling the presence of her and my angel guides beside me. My dear son and I now hold new crystals we have fallen in love with during our rest, for continued healing, prayer and meditation. We have discovered amazing mala’s made out of crystals that heal specific conditions and they are helping us on multiple levels!

Ganesh

I started a new blog yesterday, called: MusingsofASolitaryWitch.wordpress.com, and it perhaps will be my fun and crafty site; something I’ve kept in the dark for VERY long, but something that truly has helped me all these years, as I integrate reiki, intention, working with angels and prayer in every practice, and only have the intention for love, light and healing with every practice and for anyone who chooses to ask me to craft up an intention ritual for themselves.

My other blog with lots of info on all World Religions, as well as some of the beautiful mala’s I have acquired is here: Universal Wisdom. I placed a new post to my Tantra Blog yesterday as well, about the wonderful crystals, and especially some for the chakras and kundalini! AwakenToLiving.com.

My intention is have my rent paid by Wednesday, and I KNOW it will happen. I surrender and let go!

To Cleanse & Purify Energy

This morning and most mornings I am finding, as I’m creating a unique synthesis in the shower, I say LA EE LA HA ILL ALLAH HU the whole time I am getting wet and wash my hair. Then when it’s time to use soap and wash my face, I use OM GUM GANAPATAYEI NAMAHA over my hands and arms, my face, third eye, back of the neck, ear chakras, crown chakra, throat chakra, heart chakra, third chakra and all of the stomach, my yoni, and then specifically my feet, ankles and up my legs. I feel VERY clean when I am done!
Namaste~

Ganesha: Om Gum Ganapatayei Namaha

Rough Translation: ‘Om and salutations to the remover of obstacles for which Gum is the seed.’

The story of Ganesha is found in the chapter devoted to this principle. But for your immediate need, you need only know that for seen or unseen obstacles which seem to be standing in the way of your progress or achievement, either specifically or generally, this mantra has proved invaluable. It has been used it with great success not only in India, but here in the West dozens of people have related to me their success in turning things around in their life by using this mantra.

http://www.sanskritmantra.com/simple.htm

 

“There is no Tantra without mantra”

“Ganesh (sometimes spelled Ganesha, but usually pronounced “gah-nesh”) is also known as Ganapati. Being the son of Parvati and Shiva, he is definitely a Tantric deity. One myth is that Shiva (who is the highest teacher or adiguru of Tantra) wouldn’t reveal any of the secrets of Tantra to his beloved wife, Parvati. But she discovered a time when he would be weak enough to reveal the secrets…during sex! So as they made love, she would ask him about the spiritual secrets of Tantra and he would reveal them. Ganesh, hidden in the shadows, would write it all down. This is the metaphoric source of the supposed 108 classic books known as “The Tantras”.

http://indopaganproject.tripod.com/id22.html

 

http://sathyasaibaba.wordpress.com/2009/08/19/ganesh-chaturthi-2009-vinayaka-chaturthi-puja-festival-greetings-cards/

Aventurine Mala Beads

I spent most of today trying to purchase a different mala bead made out of Aventurine and the transaction simply could NOT go through. I tried multiple ways, and numerous times, and even called and spoke live to Paypal. It ended up that I would have needed to  get a Money Order or be treated by an awesome friend (which may still happen), however, I found these and love how they wrap around the wrist so easily, are loose and still have the potential of adding my own Tree of Life charm on it. I’m going to learn how to do this, and add an attachable piece to the entire mala. This could be the beginning of a new journey, and perhaps an extra source of income if I go all the way!

Here is the Tree of Life charm I found as well:

The reason I am so passionate about this is because my health is going through a transition and is in need of support and healing at the time. The more stones for healing my stomach and immune system situation the better!

TAYA TAH OM BEKANDZAY BEKANDZAY MAHA BEKANDZAY BEKANDZAY RANDZA SAMOON GATAY SOHA 108x

What’s totally amazing is I found this in my book; Crystal Workbook; The Spiritual, Healing, Transformational & Metaphysical Properties Of Crystals and Healing Stones, by Sheril Berkovitch. This is SO perfect; maybe better than the other anyway (especially if I can figure out how to get the Tree of Life on there):

CHRYSOCOLLA:

“Chakra: Throat, Heart and Third Eye

Chrysocolla helps clarify your spiritual purpose by alleviating the fear of expression. It also helps clear links with the past as you move forward. Enhances creative expression, power and communication. Helps prevent dis-ease caused by stress such as ulcers, digestive problems and arthritis.

This stone is an activator of feminine qualities. It is used by women to alleviate situations such as menstrual irregularity and the birthing process. Useful for men wishing to seek out their feminine aspects.

Chrysocolla provides a link to Mother Earth both physically and spiritually. Relieves distress caused by negative emotions. Enhances insight.”

39″ Mala Necklace with 98-8mm Dark Green Aventurine Beads, 10-8mm Chrysocolla beads and finished with a pewter ‘Guru’ bead.

AVENTURINE:

Chakra: Heart

Enhances creativity, brings prosperity, reinforces decisiveness. Diffuses negativity, balances male-female energy. Helps see alternatives and possibilities. It facilitates balancing and alignment of the intellectual, emotional, physical and auric bodies! Promotes growth during first seven years of life. Benefits thymus gland and nervous system. Balances blood pressure. It has been used in treatment of disorders for the lungs, heart, adrenal glands, and the muscular and urogenital systems. Elixir aids shin problems.

It is an excellent protector of the heart chakra; providing for a shield to block the entry from those who wish to “tap-in” and use the energy of another. (Meaning: helps block energy vampires, which is VERY important while healing a health condition and staying in the light.)

It has been used in rituals of the Medicine Wheel, to show the spirit guides the connection with the healing light of the heart.

Green Aventurine also helps to release anxiety and fear, stimulates muscle tissue and strengthens blood. It will help you move on from a limited view of your capabilities! It encourages exploration and creativity, and is helpful in career assessment and changes. It assists in bringing feelings of emotional tranquility and a positive attitude. Excellent for times of emotional turmoil and stress to assist in balancing. “An all-around healer!”

Independence, health and well-being!

(Sources: Love is In The Earth, and Crystal Workbook)

Description from the site:

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108 Bead Japa Mala or Mala Necklace (Meditation Beads)

Mala beads can be worn and/or used for meditation. A mala is a string of 108 beads with one bead as the summit bead called a ‘sumeru’. When used for meditation they can aid in focusing by helping to keep the mind from wondering and helping to keep one from falling asleep. It is important that if a mala is used to count mantras, the mantra be remembered with sincerity, devotion, feeling and full attention. There are many, many reasons as to why there are 108 beads. Here are a few of my favorite:

-In traditional Buddhist thought, people are said to have 108 afflictions or klesas. There are six senses (sight, sound, smell, taste, touch, and consciousness) multiplied by three reactions (positive, negative, or indifference) making 18 “feelings.” Each of these feelings can be either “attached to pleasure or detached from pleasure” making 36 “passions”, each of which may be manifested in the past, present, or future. All the combinations of all these things makes a total of 108, which are represented by the beads in the ojuzu.
-There are said to be 108 earthly desires in mortals.
-There are said to be 108 lies that humans tell.
-There are said to be 108 human delusions or forms of ignorance.
-The diameter of the Sun is 108 times the diameter of the Earth. The distance from the Sun to the Earth is 108 times the diameter of the Sun.
-The average distance of the Moon from the Earth is 108 times the diameter of the Moon.
-Some say there are 108 styles of meditation.

How to use:

The mala is traditionally held in the right hand and used in two ways –

In one method, the mala is hanging between the thumb and the ring (third) finger. The middle (second) finger is used to rotate the mala by one bead towards oneself with each repetition of the mantra.

In the other method, the mala is hanging on the middle finger, with the thumb used to rotate the mala just as explained – one bead at a time.

Either way, the index finger is never used to touch the mala.

“There are accupressure points on each of the fingers that work on different parts of the psyche and the brain.  When the beads press the meridian points in the finger, you can work on a specific result. The meridian point you are trying to activate is located on the side of each finger, in the center point between the tip of the finger and the upper knuckle.
The properties of the meridian points for each finger are as follows:

“Hindu tradition holds that the correct way to use a mala is with the right hand, with the thumb flicking one bead to the next, and with the mala wrapped over the middle finger. Generally do not use the index finger as in ancient times it was thought use of the index finger was bad mannered and also facilitates karma.

Buddhists generally hold the mala in the left hand. The first bead is held between the index finger and thumb, and with each count the thumb pulls another bead in place over the index fingerAfter completing a full circuit of the mala, the practitioner flips the mala around 180 degrees. Continuing over the guru bead is like crossing your teacher.” http://mala-beads.50webs.com/aboutmalas.html

 

The mala may coil on the floor with the hand resting on the right knee or used with the hand concealed in the mala bag.

The practice begins at the summit bead (sumeru) and continues around the loop until the summit is reached again. The summit bead is never passed over. So if you plan to do more than 1 round, the mala is turned around to proceed again in the reverse direction.

Whenever the mala is taken up, it automatically conditions the mind to the meditative state. The mala that you use for Mantra Japa meditation should not be exhibited and is best kept privately in a special mala bag.

*Free pouch with this purchase!*

*No claims are made. These alleged powers are gathered from writing, books, folklore and various sources.*

From the amazing creator at etsy.com Sunny’s Profile

This is the other one I love I’ve been trying to get:

Mantra for the Skull or Bone Mala

Mantra for the Skull or Bone Mala

I just purchased these mala beads, and was VERY drawn to them. I had a vision I have worn them before, and as a deep Tantric Dakini, I know I have been a Mystic Tantric Healer in other lives as well. Here is my journey to drawing in a powerful Tibetan Tantra Buddhist Master.

The mantra: OM MANI PEPI HUNG (Tibetan) or OM MANI PEME HUM (Sanskrit) are good for this, as well as:

OM AH HUNG VAJRA GURU PADMA SIDDHI HUNG (TIBETAN) or

OM AH HUM VAJRA GURU PEMA SIDDHI HUM (SANSKRIT)

or OM AH HUNG BENZA GURU PEMA SIDDHI HUNG (TIBETAN; another)

“The Vajra Guru Mantra is the mantra associated with Guru Rinpoche, also known as Padmasambhava. This is a draft translation of a treasure text which explains the Vajra Guru Mantra. It was originally concealed during the time of Padmasambhava in Tibet and later rediscovered by Karma Lingpa (14th century) who brought it forth from its place of concealment and copied it down on reams of gold. It is simply known as “The Syllable by Syllable Commentary Explaining the Benefits of the Vajra Guru Mantra.” It begins with an invocation and then goes into a dialogue between Yeshe Tsogyal, the spiritual consort of Padmasambhava, and Padmasambhava himself.”

“The great master, Pema Jungne replied:

Oh faithful lady, what you have said is so very true. In the future, such times will befall sentient beings and both in a temporary and in a long term sense, the benefits of the Vajra Guru mantra can be definitely be felt. Since my spiritual instructions and the methods of practice that I offer are immeasurable, I have hidden a great number of treasure teachings in the water, rocks, the sky and so forth. In these evil times, even individuals with fortunate karma will find it difficult to encounter these teachings. It will be difficult to bring together the necessary circumstances for these teachings to be revealed. This is a sign that the collective merit of beings is on the wane.

However, at such times, if this essence mantra, the Vajra Guru mantra, is repeated as much as possible, a hundred times, a thousand times, ten thousand times, a hundred thousand times, a million, ten million, a hundred million times and so forth, if it is repeated in holy places, in temples, next to great rivers, in areas where gods and demons abound, if it is recited in these places by tantric practitioners with pure samaya, by people with monastic ordination who maintain their vows purely, by men and women who possess faith in the teachings, if they give rise to bodhicitta on a grand scale and recite this mantra, then the benefits and advantages and energy of such practice are truly inconceivable. This will avert all of the negative forces of disease, famine, unrest, bad harvests and all bad omens and indications in all the countries of the world, such that the rain will fall in a timely manner for the crops so there will always be a plentiful supply of water for agriculture and for human and animal life, and all regions and areas will experience prosperity and auspicious conditions.

In this life, in future lives, and in the intermediate state between death and rebirth, these individuals who practice in this way will meet with me again and again. The very best of these individuals will actually meet me in their waking consciousness. Those of middling degree of attainment will meet with me again and again in their dreams. Gradually perfecting the different paths and levels of their practice, they will attain to the ranks of the masculine and feminine holders of intrinsic awareness in my pure land in the continent of Ngayab. Have no doubt of this.

If this mantra is recited a hundred times a day, merely a hundred times a day without interruption, one will become attractive to others and will effortlessly come by food and wealth and the necessities of life.

If one recites it a thousand or ten thousand times on a daily basis, one is able to literally overwhelm others with one’s brilliance, in the sense of becoming very charismatic and influential in exerting a positive influence over others, and one will gain unhindered force of blessings and spiritual power.

If one repeats it a hundred thousand or a million times on a regular basis one will become capable of effecting an immeasurably great benefit for beings, exactly as one would wish to.

If one recites the mantra three or seven million times, one is never separate from the buddhas of the three times and one becomes inseparable from me. All the gods and demons of existence will attend to one and offer their praises.

In the most excellent cases, individuals will attain the rainbow body, and the final level of attainment in this lifetime. On a more middling level, at the moment of death, the mother and child aspects of radiant luminosity will meet. At the very least, individuals will behold my face in the bardo state and all the appearances of the bardo state will be free in their own ground such that these individuals will be reborn on the continent of Ngayab and from that vantage point, be able to accomplish an immeasurable amount of 
benefit to beings. Thus the Guru replied to Yeshe Tsogyal.

She responded by saying:

Oh great master, it is extremely kind of you to have spoken of these vast and immeasurable advantages of the spiritual energy of this mantra. For the benefit of sentient beings in the future however, a detailed explanation would be of enormous benefit, and so I would ask you to speak in a brief way about the different syllables of this mantra.

To which the great master replied:

O daughter of good family, the Vajra Guru mantra is not just my single essence mantra, it is the very essence or life force of all the deities of the four classes of tantra, of all the nine yanas, and all of the 84,000collections of dharma teachings. The essence of all of the buddhas of the three times, all of the gurus, yidams, dakas, and dakinis, dharma protectors, etc., the essence of all of these is contained and is complete within this mantra. How, you may ask, does this work? What is the reason for all these being complete with this mantra? Listen well and hold this in mind. Read it again and again. Write it out for the benefit of sentient beings, and teach 
it or demonstrate it to beings in the future.”

OM AH HUNG BENZA GURU PEMA SIDDHI HUNG

See the remainder of this translation at: http://www.rinpoche.com/gurumantra.html

“With such practices, you need to first have this thought before practicing: My mother sentient beings have been suffering for a very long time, life after life. I also have been the cause of much suffering myself. In order to liberate myself and all beings, I generate the mind of Enlightenment, Bodhichitta, and Shall practice the recitation of this Vajra Guru Mantra. (say this 3 times)”

Another great resource: http://newbuddhist.com/discussion/3393/bone-mala-ethical

and AWESOME http://www.buddhaofcompassion.org/benefit

NAMASTE!

Bone Malas were used in Ancient times and in Hindu texts by Wrathful Deities; like Kali, Heruka, Samantabhadra Buddha, the many forms of Dakini, and others.

Sadhana Practice of Wrathful Deities

“In the practice of Sadhana according to the highest class of Tantras, known as Mahayoga in the Nyingmapa tradition, the Sadhaka, or yoga practitioner, transforms oneself in visualization and meditation into the Yidam, or meditation deity, an archetypal form perceived with pure vision, which represents a manifestation of enlightened awareness. By thus mystically identifying oneself with this deity during the course of the meditation practice session, one may thereby come to access within oneself the powers, capacities, and wisdoms associated with that particular form of Buddha enlightenement in manifestation. By transforming oneself into the Yidam and meditating in this state, the potentialities associated with the Yidam that are latent in one’s stream of consciousness may be awakened, whereas ordinarily they are dorment and latent. Awakening into the form of the Yidam, one discovers that the deity finds itself in the sacred symmetrical space of the Mandala, which, during the meditation session, represents a temporary virtual reality, or divine dimension, for the Yidam’s enlightened activities.

Wrathful Yidams, such as Vajrakilaya, were manifested by Buddhas and other enlightened beings for the purpose of subduing and transforming negative energies. Hence their wrathful appearance, but the core of their being is compassion, their motivation is Bodhichitta or the enlighened mind, and thus their wrathful appearance is only an expression of skillful means. Much like the martial artist, their minds remain calm and clear, and their hearts totally compassionate toward the suffering of all living beings in Samsara.”

http://vajranatha.com/books/wrathful-deities.html