I’m thrilled to announce I’ve been doing more Couples and Marriage Coaching Sessions! Some couples choose to come see me separately and one on one, and some choose to see me together. While, I am great at one on one coaching, I am even better with couples! When someone comes to me privately, my focus is on helping the individual, and all the issues they are dealing with. However, not all the issues may be obvious when they come alone. I only see one persons perspective this way, and will always take to their side. When they come together, my goal is to support both individuals, and I have a bigger picture to work with, and an awareness of whats going on from both perspectives, and hence, a much bigger understanding of the healing that is needed.
I then pick up on the joint energy between the couple, the joint patterns, the joint triggers, and all the work that is needed to heal a relationship can be done right there on the spot. I still start with a gentle breathing or meditation practice, then move into coaching for each individual, and conversation of course will happen for both sides; taking turns. We may move into forgiveness practices, acknowledging the other partner, eye gazing, breathing together, and emotional processing that is needed for each person that is at the core of the feelings inside of each of them. If we can move beyond all of these practices and the issues have been resolved, then we can move to the next stage of healing for your beloved and your relationship.
I still teach Tantra and Spiritual practices, however, they come after we have sorted out the major obstacles that are keeping your relationship separate or distant. Just like private sessions, working with the couple, both parties need to feel like they have gotten the support they needed, and each persons feelings are taken into account, as well as each persons individual issues and triggers. If the issues go beyond my abilities as a Coach, and the person needs more clinical help, we will discuss how I can be helpful alongside this, to continue the growth and healing of the relationship.
Both people in the couple must want to heal their relationship in order for the relationship to improve. If only one person wants to heal, and the other does not, we will address that in session. Or, if only one person thinks the other needs to work on them-self, and the other does not, we will find out if this is true, and how one in the couple can help the other to heal or grow. Sometimes, the support of just knowing your Beloved cares about you and wants you to be happier and feel better, and being a witness to your growth is all it takes. And sometimes, this inspires the other person in the relationship to realize they need to look at them-self too!
The cycle of making the other partner wrong is at the core of all relationships! When you can take personal responsibility for your half and how you are being with your partner, most obstacles melt away!
For those who have attachment issues and fears of intimacy, often sex and intimacy will be a trigger into their psychosis or issues that bring up the core of their emotions. I realize I am not a licensed psychologist, psychotherapist, or CLSW, however, it doesn’t take someone with initials at the end of their name to know about issues with intimacy. (And, I have 20 years of experience in the practice of Healing Arts, and Sexual Healing Arts, which can often be seen as more background than actual college).
What does one do when the person they love so much, is triggered by the mere idea, or mere act of intimacy? How do you handle it? Do you try to help them, because, after all, you do love this person so utterly deeply. Why would you not want to help them, especially if the person is your husband or wife, and the parent to your child.
Intimacy and Sex is often a trigger word, and a trigger in general for certain people. It is actually more common than we realize, albeit, we would much prefer it not be the case, or that this issue was less common. The fact is, it is a common issue, as many children and many families have attachment and boundary issues, so too, do families and children grow up learning certain behaviors, beliefs and take on issues themselves in relation to the family dynamics they grew up in.
As much as these issues are common, what is not common is that people don’t want to look at themselves and what it is that causes them to have fear, their triggers, or take personal responsibility and accountability for their own part of a relationship (that is, after all, causing an impact on the other person). That is quite a challenge, especially if you love someone, and wanted to commit to them, for the long haul.
In the book: Intimacy: Trusting Oneself and the Other, it says:
Attractive people are attracting and yet frightening. They are beautiful; you would like to relate to them, but to relate with them means to lose your freedom. To relate with them means to not be yourself anymore. And because they are attractive, you will not be able to leave them; you will cling. You know your tendency — that the more attractive a person is, the more clinging will arise in you; you will become more and more dependent. That is the fear! ~~~Nobody wants to become dependent. Freedom is the ultimate value. Even love is not higher than freedom. Freedom is the ultimate value.
And why is it that people so want to have freedom? And, why do they not think they can have freedom within a relationship? Most people, usually think it is one way or the other, not both. And, so they resist love and intimacy at all costs, because they feel to love deeply and ultimately, they will be sucked deep into a pit, never able to remove them-self and be their true identity. If to be intimate, and to love deeply, feels like a trapped cage, of course it would feel as though they have no freedom. But it is possible to have both love and intimacy and have freedom. The only place that is not free is in the mind.
If you love a person, you love a person. What will happen tomorrow —who cares? Today is so much, this moment is an eternity. What will happen tomorrow, we will see…when tomorrow comes. And tomorrow never comes. Real love is of the present. Always remember: Anything real has to be part of awareness, has to be part of the present, has to be part of meditation. Then there is no problem! And there is no question of attraction, and there is no question of fear.
However, to a person of true fear of intimacy, these principals won’t make any sense. They will avoid intimacy at all costs, or as soon as there is the threat of the intimacy leading into something more serious. They will abhor intimacy at that point, and find any excuse to do other things; anything, other than the exercise, practice, or quiet time of solitude, to be alone; sitting near, laying near or being lovely dovey with their Beloved (in any manner that feels like closeness). Having that time alone will feel like a nightmare, leading into the trap they so deeply cringe and fear. Closeness will feel like a set up, and they will raise all walls and defenses against it. They will find intimacy as the direct threat to their sanity. And, their sanity will change into a thing of the past. They may change altogether, and become anxious, fearful, or start throwing darts your way, as though you did something to hurt them, scare them, even threaten them, when all you did was desire their affections and closeness above all else.
Perhaps in the beginning of the relationship, intimacy was something they joyed, as the structure of the relationship was not set yet. It had not formed or crystalized yet into a committed relationship. It was only something of fun, freedom, joy and non-attachment. But, as soon as it felt like it was becoming a commitment, they then changed.
Before sex, there is less attachment to the person. By having sex, you are connecting on an energetic and emotional level, and a certain level of attachment begins, even if it is unintentional. A one time sexual encounter is not as attachment producing as multiple times. However, even once is enough. Something happens in your DNA, your spiritual body and it causes two people to connect on a level nothing else can.
With Intimacy issues, the after effects of sex can pose a threat to ones overall balance of their mind. It can trigger deeper emotions within, and cause a ripple effect of layers upon layers that have not been addressed, need to be healed and supported through therapy, and cleared through other paths of emotional processing. If your lover is capable of holding space and presence for you as you reveal those vulnerable feelings (and you him), it can be a match made in heaven. However, if your lover resists feeling such things, is in denial that he has feelings, or in denial that working through them together can bond the relationship together stronger, it can only cause a downward spiral of separation, as soon as you, the one who desired the closeness, connected with him.
In the book, The Seven Levels of Intimacy, in the section on The Sixth Level of Intimacy, it states where the fear begins:
It is often here that we have to tend to the wounds of our past. Sometimes these wounds have been ignored for years, and we find them infected and festering. Cleaning out wounds can be an excruciating painful experience, but if we are to recover and grow strong again it cannot be avoided.
In the level of feeling, we certainly make ourselves vulnerable, but in the sixth level, we expose ourselves. Level 6 is the emotional equivalent of nakedness. This emotional nakedness is usually appropriate only in our primary relationship. Here, at the sixth level, we finally arrive at the place where we are able to say to our signifiant other, “I am afraid.”
However, when sex is the trigger for someone’s mood, emotions and fears, often intimacy will not come to the place of creating the vulnerability that will cause a breakthrough and transformation of closeness and love in a relationship. The ability to say, “I am afraid”, and your beloveds honesty will not happen. And, if it does, it will only come from trust, honesty, and perhaps some very deep emotional healing work, if and when this person you love will surrender to this degree of help. You only pray they do, and perhaps stop engaging in sex with them, so as to not trigger their wounds, or create an episode and emotional breakdown.
Maybe they will be your best friend, and that is all they can handle…for now.
After being the pursuer, the sexual chaser in a relationship for over 4 or 5 years, it gets old. You want to be pursued, adored, wanted and chased. It’s healthy to have both partners desire one another, and take turns. It’s healthy if one pursues and initiates connection one time, then the next time the partner takes the lead. But, if one partner always takes the lead, and the only way the connection actually happens is if they must maintain taking the lead, there is no balance. Perhaps they will be glad and excited to do it for a while, but after years of being the chaser, it gets exhausting, depleting, and somewhat degrading of one’s self value and worth.
Getting to the source of why your partner won’t pursue you would of course be a breakthrough, however, that partner must be doing their own personal work for any revelation or transformation to happen. If you have to continue to be the rock that keeps things going, the source of passion, the leader in keeping it together, what eventually happens when you need nourishment, motivation, support, love, comfort and someone to fill you up to give you the motivation and balance your own energetic life force?
Perhaps there was an agreement of polyamory, and keeping the relationship open was ok, however, your ship for sailing and pursuing others sunk to the bottom of the ocean and you had no motivation left in you. Perhaps your heart became frozen; locked. Perhaps what you wanted was to be with your primary partner, and having that balanced would create the opening so that extra partners would be able to fall in gracefully to harmonize the rest of you. So that foundation relationship, the main one, the source, being broken, or unbalanced, creates a ripple effect of unbalance everywhere else too! And all those extra partners, the secondary ones, or very occasional get togethers, don’t experience your true heart, because the one you loved the most locked it with his key. And the only way it was able to be open was through him; connecting to him fully, or letting him go completely! And neither was an option. You were stuck in limbo, never connecting fully, nor either letting him go.
If you didn’t want to let him go, all those other connections were waiting. You knew they were there. They knew you were there, but something was missing, no spark of passion, no desires, and an empty portal of darkness filled its place.
So, you kept trying to pursue him, even passively, putting out the energy, the signals, the conversations, the meetings, but that part of you that got fed up with always being the seductress died when he stopped giving you his love, when he put up a wall to being the leader, a man who chases and stands strong for his woman and not giving up on her, and your feelings of value were removed.
A Womanizers Manipulative Techniques:
(Titles of bullets taken from The Manipulative Man)
Blaming: He says, “I am ok!” Wanting affection, connection, and intimacy is considered smothering in their eyes, needy and co-dependent.
Shrew: Your desires are too unreasonable for them, and your expectations are always too high.
Exaggeration and lying: He always complains that he is tired, overworked and doesn’t have the energy, and if he is late or doesn’t have time to reach out or call its not his fault. (I have lots of stories about this one. Many times he showed up tired, and would pass out on the couch or mat, often an hour late. If I tried to wake him up to cuddle or connect he would grumble, growl or complain. If I asked what he was upset about, he would also grumble, growl and complain, and often storm out like a temper tantrum. I never knew what his problem was, but it was annoying and frustrating and it got old).
Exploiting negative beliefs: If you start doubting that your feelings are valid, he will reassure you that you are wrong for having normal needs and that it is you, not them that is unbalanced. (Even if you have professional therapists, coaches, or other healers validate you that you are right, he will diminish them also, justifying why they are wrong, and add all of you to his list of people that aren’t taking his side, or loving him unconditionally for whining or being a bully).
Exploiting emotions and intimidating: You start to become afraid of the manipulators anger, and stop asking for your needs, or setting firm limits or boundaries. (And often this sets you up to being repressed emotionally, sexually and also spiritually. You try to do whatever you can to keep him happy. But, he will NEVER be happy no matter what you do, or how long you wait!)
You wanted him to chase you! You wanted him to show you that he cared. You wanted his love. You felt it before, and knew it was in there, hiding. But he only made it visible and known when he felt like it, like a temperamental cat. Was he a cat? you thought! No, he was a stupid human, and why did he have to be so damn sexy and hot? You wonder if all sexy and good looking guys are manipulators and abusers. You start thinking that might be the case. But this one was connected to you like glue, and you couldn’t get him off of you, for a really long time anyway. So, you kept trying. You kept reaching out. You kept being nice! But you were wrung dry. Your pot of niceness and sexual favors of giving withered up and died. You wanted to be seduced yourself! You wanted to be enamored, tasted, flavored with your favorite dressing, but you wanted it to be from him! Not some other person; not some stranger, or someone you were scheduled to help. It was you, who needed to receive! And your energy of giving was almost like a deep dark black hole. It had withered. It lost its scales. It lost its spark. And, it took a very powerful experience to stop the cycle of trying to be seduced by someone who would never ever give of himself, never lift a selfless deed, or make himself available to be of service (nurturing and healing that is), to any woman, or even any friend. He was, like a ghost, empty, death; your personal vampire servant; only here to suck you dry, and was always captivated to suck you more!